My worst fear~

am terrified

am scared

if not for raymond, i won't go for the checkup

if there is something wrong, what am i suppose to do

shall i avoid and continue to treat everything as per normal?

i know he will drag me no matter what

i know he will call me till i finally surrender

he is so serious yesterday and determind to bring me to the hospital

he dont want to lose me a friend

he dont want to see me suffer anymore

remember my previous post, saying what if i only left few months to live

i already have the mindset that i will leave someday

it's just a matter of time and period

is the red alert light up for my body?

am i going to lose everything i have now?

i hope the result on Monday will not be bad 1

i am not afraid that i might just go like this as i know this is the process of life

but i can't bear to leave all my friends crying for me

or maybe they dun even care.

slowly they will forget me as time goes by

no1 is indispensable to any1

shall i say that i am lucky that i have not start off with him

as it will only hurt him more in the future

or maybe i won't have the chance to be with him

cos i might not be the girl that he will choose

i know sometimes things won't go the way you expect to be

and i also know things happen too fast already

i din expect it as well but i just follow what my heart is telling me

when i come to this kind of things, i always tend to be coward

to tell a person how you feel isnt a easy task for me as i'm afraid of rejection

but i also understand if you truly feels it for that person

you will have the gut to confess

let's wait for the final countdown to Monday then~~

mentor departure, buddy consideration

"farewell party" for my colleagues

today and next fri

dragonfly night later after work

new songs which i keep hear from 883

爱上你 - by2

什么都不要懂只想继续做梦

害怕醒来以后握不住你的手

是谁太不成熟没体谅彼此感受

我不停寻找着理由解释分手

心好空像没温度的气球

我的灵魂困在回忆中动也不能动

爱上你不需要理由你到底懂不懂

可是怀念竟比失去还要更难受

噢爱让我想起你的时候泪禁不住滑落

可惜你永远都不会懂

什么都不要懂只想继续做梦

害怕醒来以后握不住你的手

如果同一秒钟你也想起了我

心只要能微微颤抖就已足够

爱上你不需要理由你到底懂不懂

可是怀念竟比失去还要更难受

噢爱让我想起你的时候泪禁不住滑落

或许我永远都看不透

爱上你不需要理由你到底懂不懂

伤心快乐在回忆中反复的交错

噢爱让我想起你的时候泪禁不住滑落

可惜你永远都不会懂

放心我还会好好的过

你不会 - S.H.E

第一次拥吻以前我们找不到语言

但听见彼此灵魂多渴望永远

贴心后嘴角的甜摩擦后眼角的咸

一起懂爱和真爱的差别

你送的杯子里面还装着温热感觉

你给的每个纪念都排在窗沿

相机是牵手两年围巾是东京五天

界线是又哭又笑的道歉

我不相信你心中现在她最美

你不会你不会你不会把我们的爱踩碎

我不相信你口中会讲出后悔

你不会你不会你不会

不心疼我拒绝被看见的泪

当初被激烈反对你安静却没妥协

对我更好来瓦解别人的偏见

我生气时总几天我倔强口不择言

是你请把我当情绪沉淀

我不相信你心中现在她最美

你不会你不会你不会把我们的爱踩碎

我不相信你口中会讲出后悔

你不会你不会你不会

不心疼我拒绝被看见的泪

我不相信重来的幸福在脱轨

你不会你不会你不会留残酷让我面对

我不相信累积的回忆都损毁

你不会你不会你不会舍得我

留一滴想乞讨的泪